Intro To The Bubbledom

 

I was at an “inside the bubble” party blowing bubbles. I’m starting to come to terms with the idea that I’m moving outside of he bubble mentally, but physically, I’m always in bubble territory. Honestly I have a love hate relationship with the bubble. It sounds so cool, and every once in a while it lives up to its reputation. The parties here are like something out of the O.C. In fact, I’m pretty sure we can hold parties on a regular basis that are more elaborate and probably more fun than those in the O.C. Anyway, I love the parties, I love the gardens that people hold them in. And I love the weather. The bubble can help you forget that there is a world outside.

 

But the Bubble can be horrible in a way too. Its not in a way that the community is harsh to a person in a very straightforward way. People are rarely mean to your face, its that the inhabitants of the Bubble -lets call them the Bubblers- are neglectful. It’s the type of neglect that can wear you down and make you feel really insignificant. I went out with some of my old classmates and I literally sat down like an idiot by myself. The old insecure thoughts that I had when I was younger started creeping back up, “why don’t people like me?” “I’m not that ugly,” “I can’t believe I can’t manage a two minute conversation with someone I once considered my best friend, am I that boring.” But quickly I remembered that in New York I make friends pretty quickly, and I keep friends- the ones that are genuine. And I go out and really enjoy my time and feel comfortable and relaxed. So I left.

 

I have since boycotted situations that might make me feel like that so I didn’t show up to a party at an old friend’s farm (which is one of my favorite places in the world- breathtakingly beautiful). Which brings us to the Bubble party today. I went to see a friend that I hadn’t seen in a while- not quite a Bubblehead. It was cool because I was guaranteed someone to talk to and enjoyed the beautiful garden and music. Oh, and there were bottles full of that funky bubble solution so I was making blowing bubbles all night and enjoying it way too much. I should probably only go to Bubble parties, if I can make bubbles.